[Tenshi/Open] Self-destruction

Of course it was Tenshi that walked in but in a way Aries was glad it was him rather then Jonathan or Rain asking him if he wanted to come out with them. Jonathan would have freaked and probably tried to pull that guardian crap with the whole staying alert at all times. Right now, Aries didn't want to be anything.

Major sarcasm and annoyance entered his voice, making it stronger, "Hooo ar you to teel meee hoow to greev?" A laugh erupted from Aries very suddenly, Mayee I idn't wannt to messs up the f*n rooom with my 'viiioencce'" That actually was why Aries had decided to get drunk instead of his usual ways of dealing with this kind of pain.

Aries started to reach for another bottle but stopped, letting his hand just fall. He stared off into space for a good couple of minutes, not really thinking but thinking at the same time. He moved his head to look Tenshi right in his eyes, "Do you hav annyyy god damn cluuu at alll? Wat itss like to looose everyything annd com bak to find tat you reellllyy don hav anyythin left?" The assassin took out a small picture and went very quiet for a long time, just staring at it. He suddenly tore it up to pieces and let the peices drift to the floor in front of his feet. Without another word, Aries got to his feet and stumbled to the bathroom where he started throwing up everything he had, hopefully including his own memories.

Suddenly, he felt well again, no hangover or drunken relief. Aries had meant to grieve completely just so that he wouldn't have to worry about it anymore, so he could find peace inside himself. He stood gracefully to his feet, slightly glaring at his friend. He should've known Tenshi would have done that. Ok so maybe getting drunk wasn't the answer, but neither was his the urge to kill everything in sight!

Anger rose in his eyes only for Aries to freeze, panic all over his body and face. His eyes widened, "NO!! No...no no no!!" Moving around Tenshi as fast as he could, the assassin went back to where he had been sitting before and knelt down on one knee. Then he was on all fours, his breath coming fast, "NOoooo!!!! Sarah!!!" He picked up some of the pieces of the picture he had torn apart just minutes before. He started shivering, he hadn't told Tenshi all of the story, there were some things you just kept secret, some things that were too imtimate to share. They had talked about what would happen if he turned Strigoi a few times. He had told her to move on.

He stopped shivering, his hands clenched in rage. He picked up all of the pieces along with his forgotten dagger. He walked over to the trash can and threw the pieces away and then got his cloak. With a sweep of his hand, he had the cloak on with the hood up, something he hadn't done much since Tenshi turned his mind back. "Ok, let's go." His rage ebbed just enough for him to say to his friend, "How did you deal with this? Tenshi, I forgot about your family being killed, I am sorry."

Going back to pick up a weapon he had a feeling he might need, Aries stopped to make sure it was still in working condition. The pistol had been kept clean all these years but hardly ever used, he still had three or four extra ammo cases. Aries thought he had only used it three or four times since he had gotten it a year after becoming a Strigoi. He blinked at it and just for a second thought that one thought, to end it all. But it was gone within the next few seconds. Aries glanced at Tenshi slightly to see if his friend had read his mind during those few seconds but he couldn't tell.

Putting the gun within easy reach from inside his cloak, Aries said more steadily, "Let's go have some fun." He was careful to keep the anger at himself from his own voice. He would get the chance to take his rage and grief out very soon. "Nice hat." Aries wondered how long Tenshi had had it, it certainly didn't look like a hat from this time century. The assassin made no comment about how Tenshi thought time healed all wounds, he didn't believe it.

"Sounds good." The assassin said with a shadow of a smile, gripping one of his dagger handles without revealing it. That took practice and he had had plenty of it, feeling completely at ease now that he knew for sure that all of his weapons were right where he could get them, Aries followed Tenshi out the door, closing it behind him on the way out.

Usually, as a guardian, Aries would have insisted on making sure it was safe but Tenshi was not a normal weak Moroi. So he trailed behind like a good little Strigoi, the thought made his own personal rage return at full strength. Aries should never had been made Strigoi, he would've rather had died then be turned into what he was now and the fact that he was not only good but great at what he was doing, sickened him.

Aries smiled slightly but it didn't reach his eyes, "That sounds like an interesting story, how did you ever get FDR's hat? I understand that." Even under his hood, he cound sense his eyes sadden, Aries had gone against his own kind without a second thought. Granted it was for survival and during bloodlust but it was the fact that he hadn't been able to stop himself. Aries' clenched his dagger, he couldn't wait to shred his kind apart in just a few mere minutes.

The assassin felt his anger rise once again, what was wrong with him? He had thought that once he had been changed, he would never be as he liked to call, Strigoi mad, but he was more then mad and angry now, he was furious. Why was he so angry?

Aries knew why, he was beating himself up about what he had done as a Strigoi but that was not an excuse. With all of his thoughts, his rage faded slightly only for his thoughts to slip away back to that gun and what a relief it would be. But his own body turned against him, his heart. Aries still had things to do, he had to make things better first.

"I would be mad about the manhunt too. What about now?" He had been paying attention to his friend, hoping that if he put all his concentration into Tenshi's words then he wouldn't have to be extremely mad or depressed. Though he really did think it was cool that Tenshi had known so many important people from history, in the flesh. Maybe later, when he was....well again?... Aries could ask for more stories. That thought made him smile, that actually reached his eyes barely but it was there.

All of his thoughts seemed as if they were unimportant suddenly as he got wrapped up in Tenshi's story. His anger and depression slipped slowly away, as if it had never been there and Aries had been stupid and selfish to even be considering rage and depression in replace of healing. Just thinking that thought and the few other good ones, he felt a piece of his sould click back into place. A calming peace flowed over him as he listened to Tenshi's stories. "Wow, that is amazing. I stayed out of politics as a Strigoi but I was always interested as a guardian. Even though the Royal families have always ruled our world, it helps to know what is going on in the rest of it."

Confusion filled his face suddenly as he swept his hood off of his head. His eyes were no longer angry or sad, they sparked with interest. "Um...who are you talking about? Who's Obama?" The least of his problems as a Strigoi was knowing the presidents of the USA. Or maybe his mind had been so warped, he just hadn't cared.

Aries listened to Tenshi's phone call, "What was that all about? And where are we going?" A sudden thought accured to him, "Do they know what you are? What Jonathan, Rain, and I are? How can they possibly be ok with having dinner with us?"